Angie

Do not be embarassed, it is nothing to be ashamed of. It's a medical condition; someone who has cancer or is missing a limb is not embarassed. It's part of who they are, whether they think it's a desireable trait or not. The fact that you're getting help is a HUGE step, even if it may not seem like it. I've been where you are, and it's so freakin' hard, no one really gets it unless they are depressed as well. But realize that even though life kinda sucks, there are good things to it. Even though we never met and probably never will, I hope this helps and I wish you all the best in your recovery.